Numb

Between the Drinks & Subtle Things

And I know I gave it to you months ago, I know you're trying to forget. But between the drinks and subtle things, the holes in my apologies you know I'm trying hard to take it back. - We Are Young by FUN

It Could Go On Forever

There is a reason I said I'd be happy alone. It wasn't because I thought I would be happy alone. It was because I thought if I loved someone and then it fell apart, I might not make it. It's easier to be alone. Because what if you learn that you need love? And then you don't have it. What if you like it? And lean on it? What if you shape your life around it? And then it falls apart? Can you even survive that kind of pain? Losing love is like organ damage. It's like dying. The only difference is, death ends. This? It could go on forever . - Meredith Grey

Favourite Things for the Twenty-fifth

Every year, I post a wish list for my birthday. These lists I made include from simple stuff to things that none of my friends can afford (like the Hermes watch). Sad to say, I got none from the lists I made. But that doesn't stop me from making lists every year. I don't mind if i get none from that list. It just feels good to make a list and compare it with last year's. The comparison shows how my interests change (or the lack of it). 


So here's my 2012 Favorite Things (aka My Birthday Wish List)


1. Perks of Being A Wallflower by Stephen Chbosky. I've read the book many times from an e-book, but I want, no, need a hard copy. By the way, this is included in last year's list, which means I really dig it.

2.Herschel Little America Ruck Suck

3. Starbucks Tumbler (Blue). I've been working for like 2 years but still, I haven't got one.

4. Wishing Lanterns. I'm turning silver this year, so this year must be a memorable one, a milestone. 

5. Marshall Headphones. So I don't have to join their Facebook contest by posting a self portrait channeling a corpse.

6. To participate in a school sporting event, to see a movie, to share interests, to talk about life. Again.

7. A visit to The Mind Museum. For more learning and science stuff. 

8. That hopeless place. To find something.

9. Burberry Summer for Men. This is lately a rare find. Mine's empty so I need a new one.

10. A surprise I guess. A good one, because the past birthday surprises I got aren't.

Take Care Now

"So I could have something to say to you instead of the 3 words that are... that are killing me. The 3 words that you know I feel but I can't say them, because it would be cruel to say them, because I am no good for you. I don't want to torture you. I don't want to look at you longingly when I know I can't be with you. So, yeah I'm smiling, and I'm saying take care now. I'm letting you off the hook. I'm trying, I'm trying so hard to let you off the hook. I'm trying to make it right. What I did to you. Can't you see that? I'm just trying to make it right."


-Owen Hunt, Grey's Anatomy Season 5 Episode 21

The Aftermath

11 out of 21. Haha.

Without You

Can't erase, so I'll take blame
But I can't accept that we're estranged.

Never Let Me Go

“I keep thinking about this river somewhere, with the water moving really fast. And these two people in the water, trying to hold onto each other, holding on as hard as they can, but in the end it's just too much. The current's too strong. They've got to let go, drift apart. That's how it is with us. It's a shame, Kath, because we've loved each other all our lives. But in the end, we can't stay together forever.” 

― Kazuo Ishiguro, Never Let Me Go

Chasing Pavements

But, if I tell the world I'll never say enough
'cause it was not said to you.
And that's exactly what I need to do if I end up with you

A Denial Letter

We only see what we want to see, and believe what we want to believe, and it works. We lie to ourselves so much that after awhile the lies start to seem like the truth. We deny so much that we can't recognize the truth right in front of our faces. - Dr. Grey

Crossing Lines

‎"At some point, you have to make a decision. Boundaries don't keep other people out. They fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So, you can waste your lives drawing lines. Or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines... that are way too dangerous to cross." - Dr. Grey

We Found Love

It's the way I'm feeling I just can't deny.

Singularity

I’ve thought about love many times, felt it many times, felt it being given, felt it being denied, felt it being reciprocated and felt it make me stupid.

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Just That It’s Happy Right Now

"At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. It's like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And it's not so important happy ever after, just that it’s happy right now. See once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprise you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away." ~ Dr. Meredith Grey

We Are Young

So let's set the world on fire , we can burn brighter than the sun.

Mind Games

It's hard to make a move when you don't have any idea on what the other person is thinking, because you don't have much interactions with each other.

So it's 2012

Can I just die over something, or die because of it?

MMXI

1. Hopeful for the year.
2. Struggled with life.
3. My first plane ride.
4. Some friends left.
5. Met a new friend.
6. Got a new phone from own money.
7. Fought stress and depression.
8. Got a credit card.
9. Three weeks alone in Palawan.
10. Spent more time with friends and loved ones.
11. Tried to understand self.

"A chance to forgive, to do better, to do more, to give more, to love more. And stop worrying about 'what if' and start embracing what would be." Looking forward to the coming year. :)

Phases

You can leave but you feel you can't.

3 Things

The moment you realize that there are only 3 things that make you happy, like REAL joy.